"You're delusional, Lestat, you just see the world and the people you claim to love for what you want them to be. But the blame isn't all on you, because it's not your fault that you've something about you that makes us want to live up to it." He let out a snort, shaking his head. "I so despise you, but do you know how much I still wish I could be who I never was, just so you'd actually love me instead of just the idea?" He lowered his arms, put the violin case down. How could he know Lestat so well and Lestat still know him so little? But he knew the answer.
"What do you think, that my soul turned ugly and repulsive from a night at Les Innocents and from the Dark Trick alone? If I hadn't met you, if Our Conversation had never begun and I'd never wanted to be impossible with you, I'd have died just as I am. As I was when I was alive. Ugly, alone. There's never been anything you'd think beautiful to my soul, Lestat, if you couldn't see it there when you turned me."
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Date: 2015-09-17 12:11 am (UTC)"What do you think, that my soul turned ugly and repulsive from a night at Les Innocents and from the Dark Trick alone? If I hadn't met you, if Our Conversation had never begun and I'd never wanted to be impossible with you, I'd have died just as I am. As I was when I was alive. Ugly, alone. There's never been anything you'd think beautiful to my soul, Lestat, if you couldn't see it there when you turned me."