"I liked you," Nicolas admitted freely, very gladly letting Spike hold him. He hadn't been held in some time it seemed. No wonder he'd started to feel so cold. "I just didn't let anything or anyone close at the time. I just wanted to move on, you know?" Obviously he knew, because they had both moved on rather drastically, even if it had taken William, Spike a few more years. "I cried after the first night we played together. When I came home and I realized I want you more than anything."