Golden Moment
Sep. 16th, 2015 12:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
divineviolinistWhat made him realize that he wasn't gone any longer was Lestat's voice and how perfectly fitting, how perfectly infuriating?
Nicolas was burnt, he had burned. But his ashes had never been scattered and sometimes all it took for their kind to heal was time and all it took for him to wake was Lestat. He didn't rise right away. It took days, weeks, and he was weak. All he could think of was the hunger. It wasn't until after he had drained his third victim that he started to stare at his hands. They were there, they were whole. Not broken as his father threatened. Not cut off as Armand had done.
They had been returned to him before the pyre. Then the pyre and then nothing. Where was Armand now? Where was anyone in his Theatre de Vampires? There were no answers to be found and he was fine with being alone. He was growing stronger now and even in his ashen sleep, his senses had grown more powerful. He heard the great city above him, he learned of changes. He heard of Lestat.
One night he bought the books. He read them cover to cover without pause, with the speed of his kind. Interview he threw into the Seine, where it could drown like Louis drowned in self-pity, and The Vampire Lestat he weighed in his hands, he read the same pages again and again and then he tore it into tiny pieces and that seemed equally fitting.
He was dead to Lestat, but Lestat was alive everywhere. The world buzzed with his name, attention and adoration was him certain everywhere, but what else was new? The first time he saw the videos, Nicolas could only stare when the actress who portrayed the Queen of the Damned stomped down on the model of the violin that had been his. His family was long gone, his mortal friends all perished, but it was the violin he mourned.
To escape Lestat, he bought a walkman and then he started his journey. He flew to America and he wasn't even certain why. Once there he started driving, usually taking the cars or motorcycles from his victims, and he only stopped to feed and to change tapes and batteries on his walkman.
He always wore gloves now, because the sight of his hands disturbed him. His skin was still bronzed from being burnt, but that only made blending in easier when he stayed at one of the road stops with their fluorescent neon tubes. No one ever took much notice until he took their blood.
Kill only the evildoer, that was the rule Lestat so clung to. Nicolas believed in good and evil even less than he ever had before. But still Lestat was on his mind. When would he ever not be? Like poison that just wouldn't kill.
When he saw Lestat it was in one of the American cities that seemed so interchangeable with all the rest. It was Lestat all right, with his flashy clothes and flamboyant demeanour, pulling along his mortal band mates into the hotel.
Nicolas was far from flashy, wearing the worn black leather jacket he had gotten from one of his first victims and simple dark jeans. He leaned in the corner and he almost ran. But then it felt as if his eyes met Lestat's and he couldn't bring himself to move.
Nicolas was burnt, he had burned. But his ashes had never been scattered and sometimes all it took for their kind to heal was time and all it took for him to wake was Lestat. He didn't rise right away. It took days, weeks, and he was weak. All he could think of was the hunger. It wasn't until after he had drained his third victim that he started to stare at his hands. They were there, they were whole. Not broken as his father threatened. Not cut off as Armand had done.
They had been returned to him before the pyre. Then the pyre and then nothing. Where was Armand now? Where was anyone in his Theatre de Vampires? There were no answers to be found and he was fine with being alone. He was growing stronger now and even in his ashen sleep, his senses had grown more powerful. He heard the great city above him, he learned of changes. He heard of Lestat.
One night he bought the books. He read them cover to cover without pause, with the speed of his kind. Interview he threw into the Seine, where it could drown like Louis drowned in self-pity, and The Vampire Lestat he weighed in his hands, he read the same pages again and again and then he tore it into tiny pieces and that seemed equally fitting.
He was dead to Lestat, but Lestat was alive everywhere. The world buzzed with his name, attention and adoration was him certain everywhere, but what else was new? The first time he saw the videos, Nicolas could only stare when the actress who portrayed the Queen of the Damned stomped down on the model of the violin that had been his. His family was long gone, his mortal friends all perished, but it was the violin he mourned.
To escape Lestat, he bought a walkman and then he started his journey. He flew to America and he wasn't even certain why. Once there he started driving, usually taking the cars or motorcycles from his victims, and he only stopped to feed and to change tapes and batteries on his walkman.
He always wore gloves now, because the sight of his hands disturbed him. His skin was still bronzed from being burnt, but that only made blending in easier when he stayed at one of the road stops with their fluorescent neon tubes. No one ever took much notice until he took their blood.
Kill only the evildoer, that was the rule Lestat so clung to. Nicolas believed in good and evil even less than he ever had before. But still Lestat was on his mind. When would he ever not be? Like poison that just wouldn't kill.
When he saw Lestat it was in one of the American cities that seemed so interchangeable with all the rest. It was Lestat all right, with his flashy clothes and flamboyant demeanour, pulling along his mortal band mates into the hotel.
Nicolas was far from flashy, wearing the worn black leather jacket he had gotten from one of his first victims and simple dark jeans. He leaned in the corner and he almost ran. But then it felt as if his eyes met Lestat's and he couldn't bring himself to move.
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Date: 2015-09-17 12:32 am (UTC)"...That is not true. You shined, Nicki, you shined like no one else before Armand got his hands on you." Blame Armand, thats worked well for ages.
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Date: 2015-09-17 12:44 am (UTC)Nicolas smiled a little and it was less crazed this time, just bitter. "I might have shaped you, Lestat, as any first is wont to do, but if you want to believe that, you'll just have to accept that I was dark when I met you and still dark when you recoiled from me. It's my first memory as a vampire. Knowing that I'd lost you, because you learned what I am."
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Date: 2015-09-17 02:12 am (UTC)He looked up to Nicolas finally. The damage he caused, the damage already there. He needed to put real thought into this. Not charge head first into it. "And I can not take away that pain Nicolas, but I can offer another try. We have both changed, I would think."
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Date: 2015-09-17 02:29 am (UTC)"I wasn't made for you and you're not made for me." Strange to be the one speaking reason and it didn't quite sit right with him, so he found himself laughing. "You'll never know how much I wanted to be. But it's not me you're waiting for, with this rock star act and the book you wrote."
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Date: 2015-09-21 04:09 pm (UTC)"Since when have we ever listened to reason and followed the right path? We threw that away the night we ran." He spoke softly, what was this? The slightest bit of red rimming those forever blue eyes.
"..." He looked away, letting his hand fall from Nicolas' jaw, he knew Nicki knew. "I did give my heart to another, but, much like everyone else I have handed it to, it is unwanted. Dropped aside again. How could you ever want something as terrible as I, when It is my fault you are this way?"
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Date: 2015-09-21 04:23 pm (UTC)He barely had memory of it. It seemed as if love wasn't anything but something he kept around to hurt himself with. Looking at Lestat he just shrugged his shoulders. What to say? What to do? "I'm a masochist."
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Date: 2015-09-21 04:46 pm (UTC)"You and Louis are kindred spirits." He spoke, wiping a hand under his eyes staining his hand with crimson. "He would have left much sooner had it not been for my cheating and bring Claudia into the picture." He spoke, finally looking back to Nicholas, and lifted his hand again holding it out to Nicolas.
"Just stay with me awhile longer, Nicki. We can quarrel later. For now, just sit with me and speak to your hearts desires."
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Date: 2015-09-21 04:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-21 05:05 pm (UTC)He closed his eyes, taking the feeling of Nicolas' hands in his hair. "Take off the gloves." he voiced low, keeping the one hand in Nicolas' hair, his other moving out, around his waist as if fearful Nicki would run, leave him alone in the Savage Garden again.
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Date: 2015-09-21 05:14 pm (UTC)"Forget my hands."
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Date: 2015-09-21 05:22 pm (UTC)"Why?" Three simple letters but a world of questions inside of it. He kept his hands firmly in place. No longer in a means of seduction, but as a means to keep him. Fearful Nicki might run otherwise, and with reason he doesn't yet understand.
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Date: 2015-09-21 05:34 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-21 05:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-21 05:56 pm (UTC)But for now he could kiss him, so he did.
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Date: 2015-09-21 06:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-22 11:35 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-09-22 05:31 pm (UTC)"Take it, I want you to take it, even if you dont. Pawn it if you wish just take it with you." He spoke running a hand through the others hair.